Can’t believe we’ve been together for almost 9 years 🥺 I love him more and more everyday. He’s my home. I wish you all to find someone that makes you feel this way. #couple #Relationship #pickthegentleone #relationshipgoals #healthyrelationship
I remember asking my mom, at 8 years old, while looking at myself in the mirror: « Why are my classmates saying that about my body? I can’t see it but I really want to understand.» I was bullied most of my childhood about my body and I didn’t understand why. As I grew older, the comments eventually stopped. I guess my classmates had something else to do than to bother me with my body-image. But it was too late. These comments were engraved in my brain and I was now the one saying them to myself. My self-hatred became overwhelming and I had to find control over something. I had to do something to change my body in order to be happy. That was the only choice I had, so I thought. The next part could be triggering for some people struggling with eating disorders so may this be a trigger warning. It started with « earning » food through exercise or restriction, rigid food rules, lots of dieting, labeling food as « good » or « bad », cutting out entire food groups and generally lots of anxiety around food. When these behaviours started interfering with my daily life, disordered eating became an eating disorder. I was missing out brunch with friends or parties because of the food and drinks that were going to be there. My obsession with food and exercise was taking so much of my time. That’s all I was thinking about. All day. At school, at work, at home. I didn’t know I had a problem. I thought all these « habits » were necessary in order to be happy. That was my lifestyle. If I had one advice to give you if you wanna recover from an eating disorder (or love yourself), it would be to be kind to yourself and to surround yourself with love along the way. Take time for yourself. Go to therapy. Take breaks. This journey won’t be easy. Give yourself the time and space to heal. There will be many ups and downs, detours and falls, but it’s within these that you’ll grow even stronger every time. I don’t think I’m fully recovered yet - but I’m definitely better than I was yesterday. There is light. There is hope. There is happiness for us too. Never give up on yourself. With all my love, Læti xxx